The Bald and the Beautiful

If you look at those pictures would you believe they were taken same day? 2 years ago today to be exact.  I started my chemotherapy and had my port placement surgery.

I will say this is probably the most vulnerable I have ever  been with my cancer journey.  As I shared a lot about what I went through I didn’t share “the hair” part.  Its something I kept for a few reasons. Mostly I didn’t want to look sick to people or myself. The whole journey was mental for me and I knew if I started to believe how sick I was, my body would shut down and I wouldn’t be able to handle all I was doing and needed to do. The only time I didn’t have hair on my head was when I was at my 3 day hospital stay but even then, I had a beanie.  P.S.  Best beanies for chemo patients are seriously from Noxxaz .  The jersey knit didn’t over heat me and they were not itchy to irritate and no scarf hang to tickle my back.  (No I didn’t get anything to say that, it is the TRUTH!)

Now with all this said. Some things I did learn. When someone is going through it, don’t say “its just hair”. Because at that moment, it is not just hair to them. Its fear of the unknown and will they make it to see the hair come back. If you are unsure, don’t say to someone “at least you kept your hair”. Don’t talk about it amongst others. If it’s just hair anyways , why the need? Sorry to sound negative but felt I needed to address that since unfortunately many are effected by cancer and I am sure you know someone who is.

The positives I experienced far out weighed the negative. I got to see my husband does truly love me for me , hair or not –I was always beautiful and felt that way with him and when he looked at me. In fact the day that I decided I was going to “GI Jane” my hair it was just a whim.  I did NOT want the cancer to control me, I wanted to control what I could.   I chopped my hair to my shoulders, then a few hours later I took the buzzer.  My husband finished it all up for me.  That is love y’all. After it was done he kissed my head and said it was the most beautiful head he ever seen and wiped my tears away.  I didn’t want to get a fancy camera and take pics. I wish I had as I look back.  I only had this cell selfie with the hair on my shoulder still and my lovely port placement bruise.  As I look at it, I know after I took that picture I had a long cry in the shower, but oddly I do see confidence.  Confidence I was going to get through this. Confidence I was going to beat this to raise my son. Confidence I was going to beat this so I could finally one day share my bald pic because I admired every single woman I looked up at that time in my life that shared theirs.  BALD IS BEAUTIFUL! ❤

Until next time.

xo,

Jess

Author: mygorjesslife53

Hi guys! My name is Jess and I am a mom to the coolest 3  year old ever, Maverick.  Married to my very best friend Cameron and we reside in Kansas City area, go ROYALS! I am creating this blog to just share my passions, my everyday life, my story.......my gorJESS life , get it ;)? I love fashion, photography, cooking, crafts. I will share some of my story throughout as a cancer survivor from a rare pregnancy placental cancer that gave me my miracle boy but left me with infertility.  My life motto is "the best is yet to come" and I am a firm believer that everday in life only gets better as we learn to cherish each day we get.  Thanks so much for reading ! xo, Jess View all posts by mygorjesslife53